40 Days, 40 Years, 40 Prayers

Day 40

Wahe Guru!

On this day, 40 years ago, this world pulled me into its vortex, its whirling totality of wisdom, misery, joy, horror, sweetness, anxiety, ecstasy, color, and resonating silence.  I am infinitely grateful for every opportunity to grow my soul.

To celebrate my birthday, I meditated for 40 days using two meditations that, according to the teachings of the Kundalini Yoga tradition, are supposed to make my prayers effective.

Recently, I happened to choose “Mother Mary” from an Oracle Card deck.  The meaning of the card said, “All your prayers answered.”  The explanation promised, without a doubt, that all I prayed for shall come to be.

Really?  Over these 40 days I have prayed for so much.  I have prayed such vast and ambitious prayers.  I have consciously explored beyond any limits to the prayers of the infinite Self that needn’t heed boundaries and limitations.  I have engaged in authentic communication with the unknown parts of my Self.  I have fallen deeply and madly in love with the Unknown.  And this is the beginning!

Whether or not prayers are answered is far less important to me than this relationship I have forged with my Self and with Infinity, a relationship held fast by prayer.

May this loving prayer be with you when you need a friend.  May your prayers be heard and answered and adored and echoed and sung and praised and forgotten and discovered and remembered.  May your prayers be a source of healing, relief, comfort, connection, and strength for all beings.  May your prayers be unafraid to explore the Unknown, engage the Unknown, make love to the Unknown.  May prayer be a constant companion that wells up in your heart when you least expect it.  May your prayer continue to overwhelm you with blissful divine love.  May you be always and ever renewed and aware in your relationship to the One.  And may the pure light within you guide your way on!

Sat Nam!

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40 Days, 40 Years, 40 Prayers

Day Thirty Nine

Beloved Everywhere,  This is my conscious prayer.

May the human family learn to thrive and be happy under the increased levels of pressure that we are all experiencing.  May we train our minds and intuition to perceive inner dimensions while the senses navigate the outer world with dignity and grace.  May more and more souls chose to experience the sacred sound current as a way to elevate the frequencies of the mind’s thought waves.  May we all come to understand the significance of every word we speak and every word we think.  May we accept, take responsibility for, and acknowledge that our words create our world.  May we come to celebrate that by tuning in to our inner sounds, and by harmonizing those inner sounds with sacred sounds, we experience our inner wisdom and merge with the vast awareness of Divine Silence.  If only one being on this planet experiences Divine Silence, may that one experience elevate every being. May collective human consciousness know deep and perfect ease with All That Is.

Sat Nam!


40 Days, 40 Years, 40 Prayers

Day Thirty Four

Meditating while basking in the energy of a full lunar eclipse amplifies the effects of the meditation.

It’s the Chinese Mid-Autumn festival.  Our family gathers on the patio to observe the Moon.  We drink tea.  The children dance and laugh.  The dog rests his chin between his paws.  We observe the eclipsed moon as a dark, blood-red orb.  She gradually removes this veil and reappears in all her silver-white glory.  She reflects.  The oracles guide us to acknowledge this evening as a time for deep reflection and for seeing and understanding that reality is a reflection of who and what we are–our flaws, our greatness, our potential.

Have you heard tell of Yin and Yang, the lovers residing on the moon?  An old legend says that Lady Yin washes Master Yang’s feet in a rose-scented milky way.  Then he combs her hair with a comb made of sun beams.  Once a year, they dance an ecstatic dance that causes an awesome Moonquake.  This seismic activity sends ripples out into Infinity.  Earth receives subtle shifts in its neutron stream.  These shifts effect human beings in a variety of ways from triggering lunatic behavior to inspiring the composition of symphonies and the writing of novels.

It is said that if a human practices a certain pranayama (breathing meditation) during this time, that person will receive the gift of god consciousness.  Here’s the practice:  Inhale deeply.  Gently hold the breath without holding any tension in the body and mentally utter (inwardly utter) the word ecstasy.  Exhale all the air out of the body.  Mentally utter ecstasy.  Inhale and repeat this pattern.  Continue the practice for three minutes.  Then put on some good music and dance.

May you liberate yourself from the tricky influences of the subconscious mind.  May you live according to your god consciousness.  May you know ecstatic, divine love because your nerves are strong, your mind serves your soul, your heart creates miracles, your navel point syncs with the Infinite Pulse.  May your will and Divine Will be One. 

Sat Nam!



40 Days, 40 Years, 40 Prayers

Day Twenty One

We are all One.

The destinies of all beings are interconnected.

The “Mediation for Word Power” involves coordinating the movement of the navel point squeezing back toward the spine with the movement of the tongue hitting the roof of the mouth. The rhythm is almost like footsteps walking.

May each completion of this movement inside my body be dedicated to those refugees walking to Germany seeking asylum.

I read that 42,000 people a day are driven from their homes. If the number of refugees throughout the world were an entire nation, they would make up the 24th largest nation in the world: The Refugee Nation…

If there are so many seeking refuge out there, then a spiritual person feels compelled to turn deep within and connect with whatever it is inside each one of us that is seeking refuge.

What inside you, Dearest Sweet One, is seeking a safe harbor? In what way do you, Dearest Sweet One, feel driven out of your home? In what way do you feel unwelcome?

Turn inward and connect with that, heal that part of you that is a refugee. Acknowledge that part of you that is a citizen of the Refugee Nation. Seek out, explore, journey to Home. Be unafraid to begin your journey Home. Home, sweet, home.

The refugee is. The cosmos is. The Lord of Miracles is.

May we all find safe and sacred harbors. As challenging as it may be, may we all realize our deep connection to one another. May we desire to realize our connection to one another. May this prayer be with each and every footstep of each and every being who seeks refuge on this planet. May each footfall of those seeking shelter be our collective March on The Cosmos for the cause of our Sacred Right to Love One Another and Free One Another and open up our arms, our homes, our minds, our hearts to anyone who seeks shelter. May the Beloved Creator of All Benevolence and All Sanctuary and the Beloved Creator of Kindness come to serve those who feel desperate, afraid, lost, victimized, forgotten, and cast out. May this prayer be heard and heard over a thousand times a day, as if this tiny prayer is the nagging wife of the Almightiest God. May she scream, “Something Benevolent this way comes!” May it be true.

Sat Nam!

Boardwalk through the mangrove forest
Boardwalk through the mangrove forest

40 Days, 40 Years, 40 Prayers

Day Twenty

Words don’t complete a prayer.  Intunement  completes a prayer.  Intunement involves vibrating prayer.

So, I am becoming more aware that with each new day, my whole being is shifting into a prayerful attitude in practically every situation that I am in.  When I am driving, I am praying.  When I am eating, I am praying.  When I am scolding my children, I am praying.  It doesn’t matter what I am engaged in from day-to-day, my consciousness is yoked to prayer. 

What this means for me is that I engage in no frivolous communication.  Every communication I have with another being is infused with prayer.  We may seem to be saying something very mundane, like, “Thank you.”  or “Please.”  But something more is exchanged in the communication because I am engaged in a perpetual prayer.

This is an extraordinary, beautiful, and utterly surprising benefit of this meditation practice.  Every interaction I enjoy is enriched by prayer.  I am bursting with joy!

May deep joy penetrate every fiber of this entire universe so that we who endure the deepest sadness may feel ever held in a warm embrace of The Beloved One Who Knows Our Hearts.  May joy spring from the unknowable places within us and give us the strength to uplift one another through our shared Divine Joy.

Sat Nam!


40 Days, 40 Years, 40 Prayers

Day Twelve

Years ago, as a new mother without a daily yoga and meditation practice, the challenges of raising children inspired desperate prayers.  If I had uttered such prayers aloud, one might have sounded like this, “God, please help me!”  Or, another might sound like this, “Oh my God, not this again!”  I would feel like giving up.  I used to succumb  to self-pity; I’d wonder at the injustice of a Universe that shows no mercy to a sleep deprived, friendless, modern woman who is simply trying to survive an endless onslaught of physical, emotional, social, financial, and cultural demands.  I’d often fear I could never ever properly fulfill my family’s incessant needs.

“God, help me!” is not a true prayer but an expression of pure desperation.  How could I help it: My nervous system was weak.  My breath was too shallow.

Luckily, desperation is easy to transcend:  Deepen the breath.  Strengthen the lungs, the heart, and the nervous system.  Practice daily.  Feel at home with every inhale and every exhale.

Desperation turns to inspiration.  I feel ready for anything.  I wonder at the truth that anyone and everyone can vibrate the divine love of the Creator and All Creation!  I surrender completely to the Unknown facets of the fulfillment of the family’s needs.  The only thing that is up to me is to pray the prayer of the Mother.

Today’s Prayer:  May the singing of praises be your food.  Praise your life.  Praise your children.  Praise your friends.  Praise your spouse.  Praise a glass of water!  Praise a stubbed toe!  Praise your own heart’s prayer!  Praise the breath of life! Praise your Mother-in-Law’s cooking.  Praise your own consciousness.  And may the remembrance of your Source and True Home, the Creator and Creation, give you infinite delight!

Sat Nam!